It's been a while since I last wrote, but that's because 8 weeks and 2 days ago I gave birth to a beautiful, healthy baby boy. Pierre D. Brown III was born 8 lbs, 1 oz and 20 inches after 9 hours of labor... You can call him Tripp, but he is my Lovebug. Motherhood has changed me in several ways. One can never 'totally' be prepared for the impact of having a newborn baby to care for; it's an AMAZING experience. I thank God for the shock of "you are pregnant" back in February. Those words changed my life forever!
It's truly a sacrifice, but when your heart and mind are all aligned with God's will and trust in His promise, it's very 'easy' to lose self for the well-being of such a precious gift. Our "Sun" has given us so much life! From his first week home fussing and getting adjusted to his new, large, cold world to his random, BIG chuckles of laughter and loooooong conversations on serious issues of today, he has tons of personality and is certainly an advanced little guy.During this time I have prayed more than I have ever prayed in my life because the thought that I will not be able to protect him from the all of the crazies of the world, the hurt that has come to us all at some point, and the rejection he might experience just because of who is overwhelms me. I have to remind myself that God IS good, and He has already gone before him to provide provision, favor, grace, and mercy over his life. My son is destined for greatness, he is the best of his parents, and MORE isn't big enough for the life God has planned for Him in the Kingdom.
Lovebug enjoys lots of conversation, looking at lights and still fans, and he can eat! I love to feel him squeeze my pinkie with his tiny hand, or make his sweet baby "coo" after a long yawn. While sleeping, he laughs so hard. I can feel his laughter in his tummy as he plays with God's angels. The kid is hilarious. His facial expressions are priceless! Man, this is the MOST amazing experience I have ever had... I feel like I have a greater purpose, now more than ever. Our Lovebug gives me life!!
I thank God for trusting us with His son, and I hold on to my faith knowing that He will help us get it right... Maybe not perfect, but I want to be that parent of excellence providing our son with a balanced childhood, stability, discipline, and opportunity beyond what's considered normal and possible. He will know and BELIEVE that with God, all things are POSSIBLE! This has been and will continue to be one of the greatest challenges of my life... But nervous, excited, anxious, and prayerful I am up for the challenge. He makes me feel like SUPER woman, and I will do my best to soar beyond the sky for him.
Hopefully, you have the pleasure of meeting him some day because he is truly a blessing. Thank you for continued prayers of guidance, the spirit of discernment, and clear direction throughout the journey of parenthood.